tunes.

a collection of songs i've been listening to on repeat that past few days:

Maps-Yeah Yeah Yeahs

Feels Like We Only Go Backwards-Tame Impala

When Nalda Became Punk-When Nalda Became Punk

1979-Smashing Pumpkins

Whatever-Oasis

Casual Collaging

A few months back, I read this article about collaging. I decided to try it out, and little did I know then, collaging would be a long time hobby of mine! A few days ago, I scanned my favorite collages, and here I am to share them:

 

I collaged the cover of my journal

 ^These clippings were mostly found from my old Seventeen magazines from 7th grade.

I think this is my favorite collage. I found the photo in the middle from a Marie Claire magazine, and the hearts were cut out from an old dictionary.

 

The background was from a 1970's national geographic magazine that I got for like, 50 cents at a used bookstore. 

Seriously though.

 

Collaging is fun. What I love about it the most is you can have the artistic capabilities of a toddler and still create art.

Nov 5th, 2012

Well, these past few weeks have gone by in a flash. Finals are next week, (yay, party), I have German homework, and a project on Twilight that I'm supposed to be doing, BUT I DON'T WANT TO, UUGGGHHHH. So I am going to chill on the internetz like the loser I am and hang out on Tumblr (where the cool kids are) and listen to music. Sounds pretty sweet, eh?
Alright well a few weeks ago, my friend Gabby and I went out to Guthridge Park and took a bunch of photos with our cameras for photo club. I developed them forever ago and only recently found out how to scan things, so here I am now (to whoever is out there) and I have a few of them to show!

 

 

Favorite photo of me ever

 

 

 

 

VOTE GABBY O 2012 FOR FRESHMEN SECRETARY

Well, we sort of just ventured through the park trying to find cool spots to take photos, and afterwards we went home and ate food and talked until her mom came to pick her up. That was also the day I broke my guitar trying to show Gabby a song I could play. Good times...haha.

OKAY WELL BYE HAVE A NICE DAY OR SOMETHING.

RANDOM PHOTOS AND STUFF.

I haven't updated in forever. You can blame school for that. (well...kind of).
So it's been almost two months into the school year. It's not going too bad...although my expectations of it haven't been met. It's actually kinda boring. Plus there's too many people. It sort of overwhelms me. You know, after being in solitude for the whole summer, and then very harshly crammed into a building with 2,000 other students. I'm trying to get involved to make new friends and get to know people better. I'm in yoga club, photo club, and guitar club. I also plan on doing Journalism and Tennis later on.
I also expected to make new friends, that hasn't really happened at all. In fact, it seems with my other friends that went to Harding, our friendship has been strengthened. Which of course is awesome, but meeting new people would be nice too.
Here's a bung of random of photos of myself these past few months because I feel like I lack interesting photos on my blog. Of course these are just really boring photos of me, but I know you all want to know the girl behind the blog. ;)

I was at a girl from my mosque's house. I snuck into the bathroom and randomly took photos of myself.

That's Tavi and I at the Rookie meetup in Iowa City in July!

Homecoming game (first football game I've ever been to)

Another random photo of me.

“They always say time changes things, but you actually have to change them yourself.” ― Andy Warhol

Change.
Change is what's significant to my life right now. I'm entering high school, I'm putting on a new attitude and opinion on things.
And I'm thinking lots. Not just my normal teenage girl thoughts; Becoming a rock star, becoming famous, getting the ideal guy, etc. But more; infinity, philosophy, meta cognition, the minds of other people, our world...everything really.
I try to grasp the concept of infinity, but when I do, it slips out of my reach. It's like, everything will keep going, no matter what. There'll be no end. Even when eventually, our world will crumble to bits, and what's left of our universe, is only the ashes and the promises of love forever that proved we were once there. And still, it will keep going. I don't know what it is. But all I know is it will go on forever and ever.

The minds of other people too. When people say "everyone's different" to be comforted, I feel quite the opposite: uncomfortable. Does no one have the same thoughts as me? Am I the only one, and no one can relate? When I share my thoughts with others, are they unable to understand, because the concept of their minds aren't able to understand it as I do?  This thought sends me in a jumble of confusion.

Life is weird. Human consciousness is weird.

I FINALLY GOT INTERNET BACK!

HURRAY!
So, Monday night I had I sleepover. I invited my friends Madi (that's her blog), Gabby,  Claire, and Ryann. Although Ryann couldn't sleepover because she had bandcamp the next day.  BANDCAMP! We got a crack out of that one...
We pretty much just sat and talked really. We attempted to watch the movie Rent, but the TV was f**king up so we gave up and turned it off. Later on we collaged from my old magazines. We stuffed our faces with pizza, Nutella (AKA: a piece of chocolatey heaven) , chips and salsa, and my homemade vegan brownies.
We changed into our jammies and got into our blankets. We talked some more, and somewhere in between that Ryann had to leave. Claire fell asleep, so I told Madi and Gabby an erotic, rather paedophiliic story. Twenty minutes later, Claire woke up, and apparently she had a dream we were all telling stories, which is funny because we actually were telling stories. Maybe next time she should dream we won a million dollars...or was given all the Nutella in the world.
Prior to Claire's dream, Madi and Gabby fell asleep, so it was just me and Claire. At the time it was maybe around 5 AM. We talked for a solid five hours, or until 10 AM. We talked about pretty much everything and anything...mind grapes, our teen angst, her recent break up with her ex-bf, feminism, blah blah blah. At 10:30, Claire departed for home, and Madi and Gabby finally woke up. At that point, I was so tired I felt like I was going to pass out right then and there. We cleaned the basement, (in which we'd littered with magazine cut-outs, make-up, food, movies, and other girl junk), and afterwards, watched the movie Bridesmaids. Gabby and Madi kept me from falling asleep by constantly whacking me with a teddy bear and spraying me with water. Ugh.
Gabby and Madi eventually left at around 1 PM, I went to my room and slept peacefully until eight o'clock, where I was forced to wake up and break my fast with yummy dates and milk.
I wish I could scan all my collages and share it with my blog, but unfortunately, I don't own a printer or a scanner (which I desperately need) , so we'll have to wait until I convince my dad to get me one.

HI GABBY.

This post is dedicated to my best fraaannn, Gabby.

Alrighty so last night, I watched the movie Amelie.

 Amelie is about a girl who lives in France, and her name's Amelie. She's a shy and quiet, and likes to dream. She lives in an apartment with many of her neighbors, and works at a coffee shop with her female co-workers, who you get to know more about throughout the movie. Then, when she's at home, she finds a rusted tin box from a boy who lived in her apartment forty years ago. And that's when her life changes.
 I really freaking loved this movie, because I felt it's meaning was really got to me.  I think it's meaning was "You can't dream forever. You need to go out and face your dreams".

So I went to sleep, and I woke up at around 12:00 PM, hopped into the shower, and afterwards let my curls dry for a bit. I got on my bike at around 2:00 and continued my exploring from yesterday. I pretty much just rode around. I went to the library and got "Love and Other Drugs" and "Away We Go". I'M SO EXCITED BECAUSE JOHN KRASINSKI PLAYS IN THAT MOVIE AND WE ALL KNOW JOHN KRASINSKI IS A SEX GOD
Afterwards, I went to Dairy Queen again, (I SWEAR TO MYSELF THIS WILL BE THE LAST TIME) and [AGAIN] got fries and an ice cream cone. I kinda felt bad because I am blowing away my money to Dairy Queen. So I went home after that, and got on my laptop, and here I am blogging about my day.
So I shall go now, and I wish whomever is reading this to have a very spectacular day.

Basements and Dingy Towns...

So today, I spent my morning cleaning my sister's old room in the basement, and turning it into my room. Although when my mom found out, she was not very happy. She said I could only live down there a week before I had to move back into my old room. Darn...

At around 4:30,  I finally fixed my bike, and took it out to explore my small and dingy town. First, I went to the library. I got the movies Amelie, and Lost in Translation, which I positively heard about. I also got the Arctic Monkey's CD, Humbug,

 which is being downloaded to my iPod right now. The best part of this whole thing is I got it for free! Let's take a moment to thank god for local libraries.
After that, I went to the Dairy Queen next to the library, and got fries, and a chocolate ice cream cone. I was the only one in the restaurant, which I guess was nice.
So when I left, I didn't want to go home yet (even though I was incredibly tired and my legs felt like they were about to burst) so I detoured to Guthridge Park, and on the way there, I found this super awesome secret spot, which was these mini-woods right next to the highway.
When I got to the park, I watched these little tots play T-ball, and it was the cutest thing ever! Plus, there was a--not gonna lie--very cute coach, who looked around my age. Although I didn't recognize him from school.

Well, that was pretty much how I spent my day. I got home feeling like I was about to faint. So I went to my room and secretly downed two whole waterbottles (my parents think I'm fasting for Ramadan) I'm still really hungry, and I still feel like I'm going to faint, but my mother is occupying the kitchen, meaning I won't be able to sneak some food down.

Summer!

Well. It's been summer for quite awhile now. I haven't been really up to date on this blog, but what can I say!  My life is extraordinarily boring, so there's not much to talk about.
Well, a few things about my summer "joys":

• I'm fasting. And yes, I know I'm no longer Muslim, but I don't want my parents being suspicious of that, so I'll might as well do it, I mean, better than them actually finding out and sending me off to some strict Islamic boarding school! Anyway, I'm fasting, so I'm crabby, hungry, and moody. 
• I'm taking a break off of my Tumblr. I'm way too addicted. I need to actually close my laptop and experience the world (which I will report onto here from now on). I need to spice up life, because right now it's quite bland. 
• I started my very first babysitting job. A two year old. The poor kid hated me. Well, hey, at least I made a total of $350 over a period of two and half weeks. 
• I plan on starting a bank account, to save up for a CAR. I mean, I'm only fourteen, but I figure by the time I actually turn sixteen and it's time for me to drive myself, I'll have my very own extraordinary fantabulous car. 
• I turned fourteen on July 14th! Which means that I REALLY NEED TO START STUDYING FOR MY PERMIT.
• I got to meet the editor of Rookiemag, Tavi Gevinson, in Iowa City at the Rookie Road Trip, she was really nice and awesome (as I expected her to be). We got a picture together, which I'll post later, because it's not on this computer that I'm currently using.
• I've started collaging and making zines!
• I've started reading Jodi Picoult. 
• I've started watching Grey's Anatomy (which I must admit I've gotten addicted to)
• I've started watching Arrested Development.
• I'm thinking about moving my bedroom to my sister's old room, downstairs, so that it'll be easier for me to sneak out in the middle of the night (I'm kidding)
• I start high school in August! Weirdly, I'm so excited!

And that folks, is pretty much the highlight of my summer. I'll keep you updated, whomever you are. Wherever you are.

"Misunderstood" and "depressed" teenage girls who enjoy flaunting it are not misunderstood and depressed at all.
Honestly, if you're talking loudly about how you have to take depression pills in the bathroom stalls (ideal place for gossip to spread, huh?), then you're look for...ATTENTION.

Welcome to the torture arena that many people call "adolescence".
Welcome.